Feed Your Hunger in 2016

This year is coming to a close. 2016 is only 5 days away. 5 days. 

This year has defined a lot for me; definitely more than I had intended it to at the end of 2014. But I'm glad it did. 2015 opened my eyes, my heart, my mind, and my soul to what I truly needed and wanted in my life. This past year placed me on the path that I had wanted to be on all along, and now I know what direction I'm headed in. 

So, I'm ready for you 2016. I'm not sure what you're bringing me just yet, but I'm ready for it. 

Below is a short poem I wrote that I'm letting define my journey to come for 2016.

Enjoy! xoxo

Hunger

Don't let it starve

It will only grow more ravenous

With time 

And the less attention you allow it to have

It needs all you can give

It cannot survive without it

So please, don't let it die out

Because if you do, 

You'll grow to regret it more and more 

As time moves forward 

With no other care in the world

And you won't be able to fill that void with anything else

So, don't let it starve

Feed your hunger for adventure

Your hunger for life

Your hunger to live

Reality Check, Courtesy of Seattle, WA.

When I was planning for my trip up to Seattle, I put that beautiful city on a pedestal, without having been. I talked about how much I'd love it, and how perfect it'd be. I told my friends that everything would go exactly as I planned and I was prepared for if it didn't, but that everything would be fine. 

Prior to my Pacific Northwest road trip, I'd been to 4 states, including the one I currently reside in. Mind you, I've only stepped foot in Arizona once or twice. And the furthest I got into Utah was Zion, which is right outside of St. George, which is 2 hours away from Las Vegas. So, should I really count those 2 lovely states? Probably not, but I'll do it anyway. And I’ve been to Southern California many, MANY times. So, I'll still count that one. To say the least, I haven't done much travel and exploration, yet. I've talked about it continuously; how much I want to travel and how much I'd love everything I came into contact with. But I'm just beginning my travels. 

Well, there's one thing I forgot to take into consideration on my trip. Reality. The only knowledge I had of these other places was what I heard from a friend, what I saw in movies, what I read in books or on other blogs. I honestly had no clue what to expect from my trip or these new cities I’d be venturing into.

I encourage you to NOT base your experience to come off of any of these. Sure, use them to give you an idea, but keep an open mind for what’s to really come. This was my mistake. I expected everything to play out just as I had seen in all the movies. (Okay, one movie in particular, Sleepless in Seattle. Tom Hanks, need I say more?) To make a long story short, everything did not play out as it had in Sleepless in Seattle.

For instance, did you know that Seattle is a NORMAL city with bad parts of town that you shouldn't end up in, with your sister, after dark? That you will feel uneasy as you walk down the unfamiliar streets, in a bad part of town, at night, with too many pairs of eyes glaring at you? I didn't. Or at least, I was naive to the fact that Seattle was a normal city, just like everywhere else. I know this happens in Vegas, often. But I hadn’t been prepared for this in Seattle. I don’t know why I wasn’t, but I wasn’t. So when this happened, I was a little shocked.

After my sister, Paige and I got back to the apartment that we were staying at with our Chinese food, she asked me if I was okay. I’d been quiet ever since the little encounter on the street corner. I remember telling her that I just hadn’t expected it and wasn’t sure why. I wasn’t upset that it had happened; I was upset that I hadn’t expected it. I'd thought that I was more prepared. I suppose this is courtesy to my lack of travel and exploration, or maybe just my lack of street smarts. 

My trip was incredible. The best experience I've had thus far. But I learned a lot also. Seattle gave me a slight reality check, saying, "Hey Mel, not everything is sunshine and rainbows. The reality of life is that you never know what to expect and you have to be prepared for that. But I promise it's still extraordinary." Duly noted.

The First Saturday of November

There are so many different feelings that arise when you take a step outside of your comfort zone. Excitement, happiness, anxiety, nervousness. The first two outweigh the second two, most of the time. But I'd be lying if I said that anxiety and nervousness hadn't made their appearance.

I left Vegas for a week long road trip with my sister, Paige, through the Pacific Northwest, on the first Saturday of November. I'd never done anything like this. I didn't grow up taking trips or venturing out to new places. I just knew that there was so much I hadn't seen, but needed too.

There's so much loveliness in doing something for the first time. Because you only have a mere idea of what to expect, but so much is still left unknown. All you have are your questions and expectations dwindling in the dark. You can prepare as much as possible. Leave the house with 7 different lists of what you need and what you already have, but those won't prepare you for what you don't know.

They don't prepare you for all the different sights your eyes will see. They don't prepare you for all the different feelings that will ignite a spark in you along the way. They don't and can't prepare you for the countless moments you will spend in awe of the beauty that the world around you holds. God, it's truly remarkable.

I loved it all. Each and every second. I loved not knowing what was coming. It was a relief to me. I was finally able to breath again.


Below are some pictures from my trip through the Pacific Northwest. We stopped in Santa Cruz, CA, San Francisco, CA, Humboldt Redwoods National Park, Portland, OR, and Seattle, WA. Let's just say, I fell in love.

Happy Friday lovelies! xoxo

Gone

You’ve lost control again

You don’t know where you are

Or where you’ve been

You’ve been going for so long now

The days are beginning to blur

You question how you got here

And then you remember the liquor

The way you let it consume your all

And devour you from the inside out

You lost yourself along the way

And now find yourself without

You tell yourself this is the last time

That you’re tired of feeling so gone

That you want to feel alive

And you’re ready for a new dawn

But you say that each time

As I hold back your hair

I continue rubbing your back

And imagine were elsewhere

Surrounded by mountains

Or in a house by the sea

But what’s the use of dreaming

If you’re not there beside me

Life Is Beautiful, September, 2015.

For me, there's just something about music.

There's something about getting lost in the lyrics and the instruments and the way the artist makes it seem like he's speaking directly to you, and not every other person on the planet.

All of this is even more enhanced when it's live. Not to mention, being able to vibe with hundreds, if not thousands of other people who feel the same way you do. As you jump to every song and scream your lungs out, or close your eyes to take in the feeling around you, right in that moment. You're all riding the same wave.

Music creates this universal connection between people and god, is it beautiful.

The last weekend of September, 2015, I was able to experience the Life Is Beautiful festival. Let me tell you, it was one of the greatest experiences. Words can't fully express it, but in an attempt to, it was simply incredible.

Below are some shots taken over the 3 day festival, including some shots of the artwork that now covers so many walls downtown. Calling it beautiful would be a mere understatement. Enjoy! xoxo.

Bands pictured include: Atmosphere, Twenty One Pilots, Duran Duran, Imagine Dragons, Brandon Flowers and The Killers, Weezer, and Death Cab for Cutie.) 

(PC:My best friend, Wendy)